Monday, March 18, 2013

DEATH IN PARADISE (not the TV series)

Perhaps some have wondered where I’ve been…
Perhaps some not…
No matter…
I need to explain my absence…
And why it may take me awhile…
To get back in the swing of things.
As you already know…
My blog is mostly the lighter side of life…
But light is not my heart right now.
A few weeks ago…
The love of my life died…
Due to complications from diabetes.
He was the sweetest man I ever met.
And I never thought I would find love again…
At this stage of my life.
Several years ago...
I wrote a novel about our unlikely romance...
As he was twenty-three years younger.
A year ago…
We moved to Akumal, Mexico to build a life together…
Also a writer’s retreat.
And three months ago, we moved into our new home.
Today?
I struggle with the details of what happened.
I manage to go through all the motions…
And emotions of getting through the days…
But I worry about my muse.
I thought after all the details of the funeral…
Which was in his hometown two hours away by plane…
And after my family and friends went back to the States…
That my muse would come out of hiding…
Not yet. My writing is not there.
Well, not entirely true…
I’ve written several pages venting my anger.
I’m strong though. My faith is strong...
I know that death is a part of life…
And tomorrow is promised to no one...
But for now…
I and my muse...
I think we'll just float for awhile.














Manuel Garcia Rodriguez - R.I.P my love 

Always, Em

26 comments:

Alex J. Cavanaugh said...

Leigh, I'm so sorry!!! Prayer for you.

Barbara Watson said...

Ohhhhh. I'm wordless alongside you. But with this, I'm not sure words would help anyway. But do know my heart hurts, aches really, as I read your words.

Unknown said...

He was the best.. Forever in our hearts, we love you lady

Jennifer Shirk said...

Oh, Leigh, I'm so sorry! I had no idea what you've recently gone through and are still going through.
{{hugs}} I wish I could hug you for real.

The Brown Recluse (TBR) said...

I'm so very sorry.

farawayeyes said...

I WAS a little worried about you. Things in Mexico, like the rest of the Caribbean aren't too stable right now.

I am so sorry to hear the reason for your absence. Take whatever time you need. Being left behind is one of the hardest things. Take care, you are in my prayers.

Constance Phillips said...

Leigh, as you know you are in the hearts, thoughts, and prayers of all of your MVRWA friends, including me. I am heartbroken for you and you are in my thoughts!!

Suzanne Furness said...

I am so sorry to hear this my deepest condolences to you. Take care and take things slowly.

Unknown said...

Leigh, You've been in my prayers for weeks. All you can do is stay strong in your faith and take one day at a time. Hope to see you soon. Love you!

Carol Kilgore said...

I'm so sorry for your loss. And I know those words sometimes don't cut it. When those we love are gone, there are no words deep enough to express our sorrow. Know that we're all here for you. And will continue to be for as long as God allows.

Arlee Bird said...

Sorry to hear of this, Em. Diabetes is something I can relate to since my wife and I both have it. Losing a partner has to be very difficult, but I know you'll manage okay.

Lee
Wrote By Rote
An A to Z Co-host blog

DL Hammons said...

I'm so sorry!! (((HUG)))

Intangible Hearts said...

I'm so sorry Leigh about your loss. Please except my condolences. I've been to Akumal the turtle named beach resort town and loved it. Truly a place for inspiration which will return once you are healed. Blessings and hugs to you.

Green Monkey said...

oh Em.... endings are so sad. anger is a necessary part of digesting sudden grief. it's a major shock to the system. it's been 10 years for me since my son died and I still get stuck in the house where I found him. sometimes, I'm there for days. he's not gone, he's just not here. i know thats not enough - not now but it's so comforting to know. it's how i get unstuck. its how i continue to dance. (((((monkeylove)))))

Anne Gallagher said...

I can't even imagine what you're going through. I'm so sorry. So very very sorry.

L. Diane Wolfe said...

I am so, so sorry!

J.L. Campbell said...

I'm sorry to hear about your loss and understand that everything else will take a while to settle in place - writing included.

Misha Gerrick said...

Oh no, Leigh! Praying that God will carry you through this difficult time.

Anonymous said...

Oh Em I am so sorry to hear that. Love & virtual hugs and prayers at the difficult time.
He will live on in your heart with love and happy memories.
x

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