Monday, February 7, 2011

FINDING MY ROOT

What is it that makes me take that turn?
Just when I see a glimmer of success…
I do a “u-ee”…
That takes me back to my starting point.
For instanceweight loss and firming up…
Just when I see results and the scale tips back a few pounds…
And my pants are fitting better…
I sabotage myself and then I’m back to square one.
Now you’re probably saying to yourself—big deal!
What’s a few pounds?
Because I’ve spotted this behavior in my quest to get published.
A few years ago I had a great review by an editor…
Who read my whole manuscript and gave me this comment:
Your manuscript was a joy to read! It’s creative, but
oh so real. And it’s funny! I laughed out loud at times!
Women readers of most ages will empathize, especially
Boomers. I can’t wait to line edit this for you! It’s just so good!.”
She did scathe me in many areas of the manuscript…
And I revised, revised, revised.
And although I did take her first comment seriously…
I didn’t take it to heart…
Because I’m not running like a champion with the manuscript.
Whenever I hear the term, "fear of success"...
I think—are you kidding? Afraid of what?
Because Ithe picture of success in my mind is great!
What is it then?
I’ve been reading The Healing Codes
That teaches how to not only heal a suppressed immune system…
But emotions, thoughts, conscious beliefs, actions and behaviors…
That sabotage.
I’m putting those codes to work…
I'm finding the root cause that sabotages me...
Because this lady is on her way the finish line...
And I can see the glimmer now.
What about you?
Anything emotions, thoughts and behaviors standing in your way?

Always, Em-Musing

5 comments:

Samantha Vérant said...

Impatience is the behavior that stands in my way. It's been a struggle keeping my "enthusiasm" in check, but I'm trying to manage. On another note, I do understand self-sabotage too.

Idiot Cook said...

Oh, that mischievous doubt monkey named Self-Sabotage. Yep. Know him well. Why do we fear success? And like Samantha, impatience is something I've grappled with, though I've gotten better over the years. (On a side note, thanks so much for your comments on Tahereh's blog...AND even more important, we sound like lost twins...I'm a copywriter and have done my fair share of VOs, thanks to radio.) So nice to virtually meet you! I'll be back. :)

Misha Gerrick said...

I think fear has been getting in my way lately. It never occurred to me before, but the other day someone asked me if anything scared me and the realization hit me.

Good luck!

:-)

Jennifer Hillier said...

Oh yeah, I'm the queen of self-sabotage. I have serious problems with learning to celebrate my successes. It's something I'm seriously trying to work on this year.

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