Friday, February 26, 2016

THE BLACK MOMENT

Don’t you just hate it when this happens
You go into a project with a friend
Get all excited and plunk down some $$$
Then spend months working on it
Only to have said friend
Back out of the project because
      ** NEWS FLASH **
WRITER DIES AT WRITER RETREAT
OK, not a true news story
But definitely a true story
This wimp/liar/nutcase friend
Who was going to do the retreat with me
Looked me square in the eye and said
I just know if I do this retreat Ill die!
The energy is wrong! Its scary!
I am not joking.
How do you possibly counter that?
You can’t, and I didn’t.
I told her she’s entitled to her belief system
And I, mine.
e.g. I believe in keeping your word
I believe in not letting your friends down
Yada, yada, yada.
Was I hurt? Disappointed? Shocked? Confused?
Yes, yes, yes, and yes.
But when someone has a belief system
So strong
You have to concede that nothing you say
Will change their crazy mind.
*sigh*
I know Ill soften
Because I don't hold grudges
And I do plan on regrouping next year
Because it will take several people to replace her.
She was that good.
* sigh *
But on the upside
I have more time to work on my goals.
So?
How are you at getting over stuff? 
And not holding grudges?


Always,
Em-Musing



Wednesday, February 17, 2016

I DO, YOUR HONOR

Words
We write them
We speak them
But do we honor words?
Specifically, when you give your word. 
I’m going to put my heart
On my blog today
Because it’s hurting.
I’ve been working with a writer friend
Putting together a writer retreat.
She and I met four years ago
At a dinner party here in Mexico
Our host sat us next to each other
We discovered we were both writers
Both bought jungle lots in Rancho San Martin
With the intention of doing a writer retreat
Though we bought our lots at different times
They are across from each other
What are the odds, right?
Fast forward to a few months ago
We say, OK! It’s time! Let’s do this retreat!
First, upfront money from me ($2,300)
For a website, & deposit for retreat location
No biggie, though. I’ll recoup.
Then many hours putting the schedule together
Imagining how our different workshops will be 
The fun it will be 
And then lo and behold - an editor agreed to come!!!!
YAY! 
But then 
This past Saturday
In an EMAIL no less
My friend backs out! 
Saying 
"My energy is in a different place
Winds of change blew into my life
I needs to honor it
You can do this retreat on your own.
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I am hurt, angry, disappointed, confused
How could she go back on her word?
The truth is I can’t do this retreat on my own.
She was supposed to be doing energy workshops
On things I'm not trained in.  
I don’t have that expertise. 
I haven’t spoken to her yet
Though she wants to.
However, we’ve emailed back & forth some
But before I meet with her
I need to have my emotions in place
And right now they're scrambled.
I have no clue how to regroup the retreat.
In her last email she said
"I have to honor my new energy."
So
I have a deep question for you… 
When it comes to "honoring"… 
How to you choose WHAT to honor? 
keeping your word on your committment to a friend?
Or
Your "energy" whatever that really means?
Has anyone ever reneged on their word to you?


Always,
Em-Musing

P.S. If you or anyone you know does energy work and is a writer, or does energy work on writers, and would like to come and do a workshop here in Mexico, email me and let me know your fee and availability, june 14 - 19. 




Thursday, February 11, 2016

UNDER MY THUMBS

When I learned to type
My fingers fit the keyboard
And I used all my fingers
I could get a rhythm and flow going on
Much like playing a piano.
But now I've had to learn
To use only my thumbs or my pointer finger
For texting
And it’s driving me crazy!
My fingers don't fit the tiny keyboard!
Yeah, yeah I know
I can speak”  my comments
But I don’t always want others to hear me
And if I call that person
They won’t answer!
What’s up with that?
Only their thumbs are available?
And then there’s the hassle of Skype or Facetime.

SFX: Video call coming through

Shit! 
Be right there,I yell off camera.
I then scramble and grab more to put on
Because I'm in the tropics and it's hot here
And my grandkids don’t need to see
Barely clad grandma.
So? 
Ever have to dress or redress for video calls?
And what about long conversations via texting?
Thumbs up? Thumbs down? 

Always,
Em-Musing

Wednesday, February 3, 2016

FRANKENBLOG

Much like Mary Shelley
Who wrote about a doctor creating a man
From  body parts not yet cold in their graves
I wanted to write on a cool blog
But I didn't like any of Blogger's templates
So I created one myself
Piecing together bits of this and that
Until I created 
EEEEEEAAAAA!
FRANKENBLOG!
It looks like a real blog
But doesn't behave like a real blog.

And if that isn't horrifying enough
After months of my blog acting lifeless
Not able to handle new changes
EEEEEEAAAAA!
It's come alive again!!!
IT ZOMBIE-FIED!
I know this to be true because the other day
I went to write a post and
EEEEEEAAAAA!
My blog background was changed!
All by itself!
From black to white!
And I didn’t do it
It had to have been my zombie-fied blog!

And then for the last week
Every time I open up my blog
EEEEEEAAAAA!
I’ve lost followers!
But I don’t believe for a minute
Thirty people have taken the time
To “unfollow" me.
Because you know how it is

You follow someone
But you don’t always comment
Nor do you “unfollow” them.
So my zombie-of-a-blog 
Must have devoured those followers!
Or wait
Do you ever unfollow someone's blog?
And 
Do freaky things happen to your blog too?

Always,
Em-Musing