Perhaps
some have wondered where I’ve been…
Perhaps some not…
No
matter…
I
need to explain my absence…
And
why it may take me awhile…
To
get back in the swing of things.
As you
already know…
My
blog is mostly the lighter side of life…
But light
is not my heart right now.
A
few weeks ago…
The
love of my life died…
Due
to complications from diabetes.
He
was the sweetest man I ever met.
And
I never thought I would find love again…
At
this stage of my life.
Several years ago...
I wrote a novel about our unlikely romance...
As he was twenty-three years younger.
A year ago…
We moved to Akumal, Mexico to build a life together…
Also a writer’s retreat.
And three months ago, we moved into our new home.
Today?
I
struggle with the details of what happened.
I manage to go through all the motions…
And
emotions of getting through the days…
But I
worry about my muse.
I
thought after all the details of the funeral…
Which
was in his hometown two hours away by plane…
And
after my family and friends went back to the States…
That
my muse would come out of hiding…
Not
yet. My writing is not there.
Well, not entirely true…
I’ve written several pages venting my anger.
I’m
strong though. My faith is strong...
I
know that death is a part of life…
And
tomorrow is promised to no one...
But
for now…
I and my muse...
I think we'll just float for awhile.
Manuel Garcia Rodriguez - R.I.P
my love
Always,
Em
