HOW DEEP IS YOUR NEED?

The fabulous Elana Johnson...
Is hosting a 'Never Surrender' Blogfest.
Although I haven't signed up...
I like the theme...
And here's my post on 'Never Surrender'

Years ago…

When I was honing my skills as an actor…

I signed up for an acting class with Uta Hagen…

Renown Broadway actress and acting coach.

I, along with a fellow actress…

Had practiced a scene from Street Car Named Desire.

However, when we chose the scene…

We were unaware Uta won critical acclaim...
For her role as Blanche DuBois.

It wasn’t until the day before the workshop began…

When we found out.

“Are we nuts, Leigh? 
Playing Stella and Blanhce DuBois…

In front of the greatest woman to play Blanche DuBois?

No way! I’m not going to make a fool of myself.”

And so she baled.

And I was left with a choice: give up…

Or hustle and memorize a new monologue …

And then perform it in the next few days…

In a theater fifty miles away where I knew no one else…

No colleagues waiting in the wings…

To give me an ‘atta girl’, hugs, or a shoulder to cry on.

And to make the matter worse…

Two years earlier I’d performed in front of Uta…

And her harsh critique left me balling like a baby.

I did forge forward...
I used a monologue from Plaza Suite…

One that I was somewhat familiar with.

I then rehearsed, got props, wardrobe and went.

But it wasn’t the hundreds of dollars I shelled out…

Nor that I’m a sadist for punishment…

That made me overcome this outrageous situation…

(And believe me, I have stage fright baaad)

It was a need deep within to prove I could do it...
That I had talent.

I feel the same for writing and wanting to be published...

And this need runs deep.
What about you?

Do you have a need?
And how deep does it run?

Always, Em-Musing
P.S. Uta actually gave me a mostly positive critique of my performance.