WORD UP

So here it is …

My first Insecure Writer’s Support Group Post 

Hmm? 

What am I insecure about?

Words!

Words from the past…

Words of my mother…

Words that might come true:

“You always start things but never finish.”

GULP!

Is it true?  

OK, yes, for some things…

But no, not all things!

However with this writing-to-get-published thing…

Here is my insecurity…

That I’ll lose gusto…

Won't be able to go the distance…

Not send out enough queries… 

Not find that agent or editor…

Not do all the marketing and all the follow-up…

Ya know - not get to the finish line!

I just finished reading Gregg Braden's book:

The Spontaneous Healing of Belief

It shows how your belief system…

Affects your health, happiness, relationships…

Well, all aspects of your life

And how visualization manifests what you want.

I guess I'm always good at seeing me published…

Ya know, basking in the shine of accolades

But not seeing me doing the work to get there.

So?

Is visualization any part of your writing life?

Or any part of your life?

Always,

Em-Musing

P.S. Here's the link to the ISWG webpage 
http://www.alexjcavanaugh.com/p/the-insecure-writers-support-group.html

THE BLACK MOMENT

Don’t you just hate it when this happens…

You go into a project with a friend…

Get all excited and plunk down some $$$…

Then spend months working on it…

Only to have said friend…

Back out of the project because…

      ** NEWS FLASH **

WRITER DIES AT WRITER RETREAT

OK, not a true news story…

But definitely a true story…

This wimp/liar/nutcase friend…

Who was going to do the retreat with me…

Looked me square in the eye and said…

“I just know if I do this retreat I’ll die!

The energy is wrong! It’s scary!”

I am not joking.

How do you possibly counter that?

You can’t, and I didn’t.

I told her she’s entitled to her belief system…

And I, mine.

e.g. I believe in keeping your word…

I believe in not letting your friends down…

Yada, yada, yada.
Was I hurt? Disappointed? Shocked? Confused?

Yes, yes, yes, and yes.

But when someone has a belief system…

So strong…

You have to concede that nothing you say…

Will change their crazy mind.

*sigh*

I know I’ll soften…

Because I don't hold grudges…

And I do plan on regrouping next year…

Because it will take several people to replace her.

She was that good.

* sigh *

But on the upside…
I have more time to work on my goals.
So?

How are you at getting over stuff? 
And not holding grudges?

Always,

Em-Musing

I DO, YOUR HONOR

Words…

We write them…

We speak them…

But do we honor words?

Specifically, when you give your word. 

I’m going to put my heart…

On my blog today…

Because it’s hurting.

I’ve been working with a writer friend…

Putting together a writer retreat.

She and I met four years ago…

At a dinner party here in Mexico…

Our host sat us next to each other…

We discovered we were both writers…

Both bought jungle lots in Rancho San Martin…

With the intention of doing a writer retreat…

Though we bought our lots at different times…

They are across from each other…

What are the odds, right?

Fast forward to a few months ago…

We say, “OK! It’s time! Let’s do this retreat! ”

First, upfront money from me ($2,300) …

For a website, & deposit for retreat location…

No biggie, though. I’ll recoup.

Then many hours putting the schedule together…

Imagining how our different workshops will be… 

The fun it will be… 

And then lo and behold - an editor agreed to come!!!!

YAY! 

But then… 

This past Saturday…

In an EMAIL no less…

My friend backs out! …

Saying… 

"My energy is in a different place…

Winds of change blew into my life…

I needs to honor it…

You can do this retreat on your own.

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I am hurt, angry, disappointed, confused…

How could she go back on her word?

The truth is – I can’t do this retreat on my own.

She was supposed to be doing energy workshops…

On things I'm not trained in.  

I don’t have that expertise. 

I haven’t spoken to her yet…

Though she wants to.

However, we’ve emailed back & forth some…

But before I meet with her…

I need to have my emotions in place…

And right now they're scrambled.

I have no clue how to regroup the retreat.

In her last email she said…

"I have to honor my new energy."

So…

I have a deep question for you… 

When it comes to "honoring"… 

How to you choose WHAT to honor? 

keeping your word on your committment to a friend?
Or…
Your "energy" whatever that really means?

Has anyone ever reneged on their word to you?

Always,

Em-Musing

P.S. If you or anyone you know does energy work and is a writer, or does energy work on writers, and would like to come and do a workshop here in Mexico, email me and let me know your fee and availability, june 14 - 19.